The Time Between
Can an Ex-Pat Truly Return?
Rome, March 2005
I’m in trastevere, that acquired-taste of a Roman neighborhood that is a challenge every moment of every day, beginning with the first step outside on an early spring morning--- and a stumble over one of the gaps created by millions of missing cobbles. The spaces between the intact cobbles are stuffed with cigarette butts, bits of plastic, odure of every description, and brave blades of new grass. All I want is to make it to the Ombre Rosse, the Red Shadows café, for a cappuccino, so I walk carefully, one eye tracking danger on the ground. For months, I have dreamed of a daily stroll to this café where I can, for ten days at least, feel like I am back in Italian life.
A complete set of car and house keys is resting on an iron trash receptacle as I pass through the Piazza Santa Maria. I picture someone retracing steps far into the night to no avail. Finally, a taxi or a long walk home. The steps around the fountain are momentarily empty of young people and dogs. Later on this afternoon, I’ll go for a drink with friends who live at Number 9 on the piazza---I have a little surge of well-being about it.
The outdoor area at the café is almost deserted, deep in cool shade. As I wait for my coffee, a sleepy man ties up his black dog to a stack of chairs and goes inside, yawning. He’s obviously a regular, exactly what I want to be, one of those People of Trastevere who seldom cross the river and belong to the special group of quirky, neighborhood individualists. The thought does cross my mind that I am way too old to be this simplistically romantic. After all, I’ve lived in Italy already. Five years all together. No good reason to justify nonsense.
The cappuccino is good. The pace of foot traffic picks up as the sun spills over into the lane. Across the way, a shape emerges from a pile of cartons, a voice calling out, “Massimo, un cappuccino per Don Giovanni.” The man, bearded and in a grimy overcoat, shuffles over, making huffling sounds. Avoiding eye contact, I feel the beginning of annoyance, a buried residue from twenty years in the Haight Ashbury.
“Massimo, un cappuccino per Don Giovanni, un cappuccino per Don Giovanni, un capucc---,” is repeated until the guy from the café comes out with a plastic cup, shaking his head and laughing. “Don Giovanni” makes a deal of stretching his aching back before graciously accepting his free coffee. After another persusal of who’s who in the outdoor area, he gets on with his apparent first job of the day, guarding the black dog tied up outside. There is sitting, petting, talking---conversation with the pooch and with everyone else who walks by. Several people stop to chat, calling him Gianni. Everyone is affectionate.
Eventually, the sleepy guy comes out, thanks Gianni for watching his dog, has a few words and strolls off. An old memory bobs up; I flash on one particular homeless man that hung out for years in my old neighborhood, Cole Valley, who was “our” guy, named Johnny. This Gianni goes with this vicinanza, one of the “special group of quirky, neighborhood individualists” who come with the territory.
In my room at the Hotel Cisterna in trastevere, the windows are open, with a balmy end-of-March breeze, voices of people clearing out a garden below, hammering on metal, a dog or two yapping, and traffic---always traffic. It’s mid-morning and the aroma of frying garlic is beginning to waft through the air. Lunch is a mere three hours away. This is my last week of a month-long journey away from my current home in Santa Fe. I spent a few nights near Piazza Navona after arriving in Rome, a week in Taormina with friends, nine days in Paris---and now a final ten days in trastevere. I feel surprisingly neutral about leaving next week, a first for me.
In the past, my heart would ache for days before I had to leave Italy, even when I lived here and knew I would return to a home I had made. Something might happen, something might stop me from coming back; the horror of that thought would keep me awake at night.
The original plan for this trip was to take time to find an affordable apartment in either Rome or Paris. After two years back in the U.S. and the depressing election results, I’ve been wanting out---again. This time I have a house I can exchange or rent out, maybe even for just three or six months a year, so I could, theoretically, spend extended time again in Europe. By the time my departure date rolled around, however, I realized that the present (and on-going) exchange rate made the whole idea ridiculous from a financial standpoint. My previous five years of living in Italy had been in a cushy bubble of strong dollars and no hint of a 9/11. After the disaster, I still held out another year before I moved back, in early 2003.
So, the last few weeks have been, more or less, a holiday, spending lots of weak dollars, and thinking “what if.” What if there were no George Bush to screw up our world, what if the dollar regained strength, what if the economy rebounded? These things will probably correct themselves with time, I can tell myself and, with a sigh, order another vino bianco.
However, now that my return to the U.S. is nearing, other issues are lounging with me in charming cafes, whispering like little annoying homeless spirits in my ear. Would I, could I, ever be as happy again as when I first moved to Italy in 1998? To make the move once more and not feel the ecstasy---how awful would that be? To be a renter again in Italy (or France), once more under the thumb of a landlord with an inexplicable agenda. To face yet again my phobic loathing of any contact whatsoever with foreign medical or dental facilities. The little spirits are multiplying, it seems. Mi lasci in pace...
Perhaps most importantly, has too much time passed since I lived here? Although Italy and Italians seem familiar and wonderful as usual, I feel different. I’m more interested now than before in having a sense of belonging. A country I am from, where I live because I am part of it, not just as an explorer, an adventurer, a student of its culture. Of course this is a by-product of getting older, I can tell myself with complete confidence. Encore di vino, per favore.
Outside the window, a little church bell is ringing, anticipating noon by three minutes. I’m starting to think about lunch, seriously. A short walk will result in a plate of delicious risotto---that’s an immutable fact, not a vaporous thought. And as far as ecstasy goes, all I have to do is think about my recent nine days in Paris. I haven’t lived there yet. Plenty of ecstasy to be had in Paris for a couple of years, I’m sure.
Travel Notes on Taormina
This was my second visit to this beautiful cliffside town in eastern Sicily. My strong advice for those going is: stay in town. We were ensconced in a roomy villa near the shore, way below Taormina. For me, the inconvenience loomed large, although it didn’t seem to affect the others in our house group. I would so have preferred to be located on or near Corso Umberto 1st, the charming main drag, from which pretty side streets wind either up or down the mountainside.
The Pasticceria Etna, C. Umberto 112, has the best cannoli I ever had. Euro 1.70 each, deep, dark crunchy shell, creamy, airy filling. There’s a cool internet café, Netpoint, on Via Jallia Bassia 34, near the Messina gate, 3 Euros per hour. I liked the Mocambo Bar in the gorgeous Piazza 9 Aprile; great views and people-watching from the outdoor area. A glass of house wine is 3 Euros.
In general, the restaurant food I had was good and a little cheaper than, say, Rome. I don’t have any particular place to recommend from those at which we dined. There is a lot of good wine to be had.
Travel Notes on Paris
Well, there goes my heart. Paris is such a magnificent and bouyant city. Although it was March, the weather was very fine, with emerging flowers and trees in blossom. Everybody seemed so happy to have the sun on their faces.
For nine nights, I stayed at a hotel in the Latin Quarter, near Notre Dame, a way too-busy area, but---fun, in a way. Next time in Paris, if I stay in a hotel rather than an apartment, I would book waaay ahead at the Comfort Inn Mouffetard, located on, in my opinion, the most wonderful street in Paris.
Rue Mouffetard, in the 5th arrondissement, is a street famous for its age, character, specialty food shops and wonderful open market. On my own, and with Martha, a friend from Florence, I walked the length of the “Mouff” several times, with leisurely stop-offs for coffee, lunch, browsing.
At the lower end of Rue Mouffetard, the fun begins around the square St. Medard, where there are several cafes where one can fortify one’s self before the hike up the hill. A fountain in the center starts its cheerful spray at 10 a.m. on the dot. The produce markets are scattered in front of the pretty church of St. Medard on the north side of the place. Everything---fruit, vegetables, flowers---looks wonderful and fresh. At No.128 Rue Mouffetard, I bought the best roasted chicken (half) of my life, part of which was deliciously consumed on a bench in the little park along the side of the church.
Up the street, there are a number of open-fronted cheese stores with cases proudly displaying lumps of mold-covered bacterial substance that made me, for one, realize that I am in serious need of an education in cheese. Just another reason for a future extended stay in Paris.Intermingled with the cheeses are shops for meat, poultry, charcuterie, fish and so on, all looking first-rate.
Strolling up the hill, one can stop off at numerous old, old bistros for coffee, wine or a meal, and of course, there are examples of ethnic eating---Turkish, Egyptian, et cetera. The shops for jewelry, arts and crafts and housewares are way too attractive, along with numerous bookstores. At No.89 Rue Mouffetard, I found “Sous Le Soleil,” a charming boutique for lovely things from Provence. My granddaughter Miranda, who is currently into twirling, will enjoy the two sun dresses I couldn’t resist; they have ruffle-ly full skirts and are made with the colorful provence fabrics.
Eventually you reach the Place de la Contrescarpe, another delightful square with a fountain in the center. On weekends (at least) this place and the whole of Rue Mouffetard is a pedestrian-only zone---so nice. My favorite bistro on the square turned out to be “La Contrescarpe,” officially located at No. 57 Rue Lacepede. Inside, the place is old and comfy, with book-lined walls, various-sized glass-topped tables and leather easy-chairs, plus scattered potted palms. Outside, the terrace area is tops for people-watching with the fountain as a backdrop. Here, a kir costs 4 Euros, a glass of house white is 3.50 Euros and a verre de Bordeaux is 5 Euros.
For one lunch, eaten inside at “La Contrescarpe” in leather-bound comfort, I had the 14 Euro fixed menu, from which I chose the Tartare Avocat, a wonderful combo of sliced smoked salmon making a nest, with chunks of dressed, and spanking fresh, avocado nestled inside. My main course was a great, tasty braised chicken quarter laid on top of a plate-full of puffed-up roasted potatos that had just the right hint of garlic. My friend had a bowl of “La Contrescarpe” onion soup (7 Euros), which she liked very much, but she couldn’t keep her fork out of my potatoes. On another occasion, we had the duck confit and the Parisian salad---both very good.
Above the Place de la Contrescarpe, at 56 Rue Mouffetard, is the Comfort Inn. It’s in a typical old building with perhaps five stories, and it’s just about the only place to stay directly on this famous street. The place is apparently nearly always completely booked.
Impressions: March 20 – March 28, 2005:
In Paris, person can sit down and have a meal at any time of the day or night; that’s the function of the brasserie, and sometimes the bistro. Food is expensive, with today’s weak dollars, but fresh and delicious in almost all cases. The coffee is to die for; the aroma alone is worth a trip to Paris. There are also many, many wonderful opportunities for take-out food, already cooked or oven-ready.
There are lots of parks, large and small, and children’s play areas, especially along the sides of churches; dogs aren’t allowed in these public areas. People sit in the parks, talking and reading books.
In the 5th, at least, bookstores are everywhere. At Shakespeare & Company, No.37 rue de la Bucherie, there is a small shelf of used books for 5 Euros. When you purchase a book, the clerk stamps the inside front page with the store’s logo and the words “Kilometer Zero Paris.”
The sidewalks are clean and well-paved, with no dog litter as in the past. Little green
trash baskets ring every park and place. There is a huge number and variety of city vehicles that roam about day and night, cleaning streets, sucking up dog poop and emptying trash.
Smoking, at present, is still permitted inside restaurants, bars, bistros, brasseries and cafes. Ashtrays are provided. At outdoor tables, smoking also occurs, but there are no ashtrays; they are “not permitted.” Surprisingly, American Spirit cigarettes, manufactured in Santa Fe, are available at some tobacco shops. I was told that a smoking ban (inside) will take effect in about six months.
The “Matisse: Une Seconde Vie” exhibit at the Palais du Luxembourg was great, and well-managed, featuring a significant number of the artist’s later collages and about a dozen paintings. As old Henri once said, “Sans passion, il n’y a pas d’art,” and he sure had passion. Admission is 10 Euros; the show ends on July 17. The area outside the entrance had two pretty cafes set up, one inside a tent and one in the open air. Leave it to the French to grasp that great art goes well with a café-crème or une verre de vin blanc.
My friend and I tried two Paris restaurants that are reviewed on Slow Travel. The first, Les Fetes Galantes, was a tiny, intimate place, sort of like a hippy living room from the sixties. Maybe six tables at most, so reservations are necessary. I made an error ordering a “soup” that was essentially a liquid bowl of fois gras. Sooo rich I couldn’t finish it. Then, I had sweetbreads, lovely, tender, delicious; this is a dish I haven’t had in at least twenty years, so I couldn’t resist. Martha had a salad and the duck confit, both of which were very good. The fixed-price menus were average for Paris, the dish presentations were arty, especially dessert. We had a bottle of nicely-chilled Graves for 16 Euros that was totally delicious. Les Fetes Galantes, No.17 rue de l’Ecole Polytechnique, phone 01 43 26 10 40.
The other Slow Travel reviewed restaurant was Le Vieux Bistro, at No. 14 rue Cloitre Notre-Dame, on the north side of the cathedral. We had an OK, and expensive, lunch there one day. The green salads were excellent, le boeuf bourguignon---well, I wouldn’t go down that road again. Just too heavy for lunch, and not all that interesting a version of the classic dish, with a too-prevelant flavor of smoked bacon, very few onions and no discernable mushrooms. The place was cute inside, though, and I liked my broiled orange slices for dessert.
Near my hotel, I became fond of Le St. Severin, a bistro across from the church and on the street of the same name. One night, I had a fantastic plate of three loin lamb chops, broiled-crusty but nicely rare, along with excellent pommes frites, for Euro 10.50. A quarter-liter of house wine is 6 Euros. A tasty salade nicoise is Euro 9.10. The waiters at Le St. Severin are especially nice and remembered me after my first visit. The outdoor sitting area is more peaceful and less tourist-flooded than on the other nearby streets.
Final thoughts: Paris seems such a liveable city, with at least a few people in charge who do some creative thinking. Unlike Rome, the Paris infrastructure is, apparently, in good shape. Things work. I hope to spend a lot more time there in my life.
Travel Notes on Rome & Trastevere
Arriving in trastevere after nine days in Paris was like finding one’s self suddenly in a version of Bosnia. It took several precious days to get back into the hang of the neighborhood, where I’ve happily stayed twice before, in two different apartments. I had planned to do the same this time, but some iffy personal circumstances occurred that caused me to cancel the vacation rental I had reserved.
So, this time I stayed at the Hotel Cisterna, which is just a minute’s walk from the neighborhood’s main piazza, Santa Maria in Trastevere. The ancient street the hotel is on is a total mess, with grafitti everywhere, trash, and actual garbage strewn around the cute little old “cisterna” fountain at the corner. The hotel itself I liked.
Most of my ten days in trastevere were spent lounging unashamedly in caffes, especially Caffe di Marzio on the main piazza. Spent a lotta euros there. I talked to friends on my loaner cell-phone. I saw friends who live in Rome for drinks, lunches and dinners. I wandered around and made a couple of watercolors. I spent time in my hotel room writing. The death watch for il Papa was in full swing on TV from the moment I arrived in Rome.
On my first night, after schlepping messily from Fumicino by train and taxi to the hotel, and arriving after dark, I went out in search of, well, I didn’t even know what. I wandered over to via della Scala, found Pizzeria Gianni, a slice place, where I carried off two fetti and a bottle of chilled white frascati. Gianni had opened the wine and provided a couple of plastic cups, so I climbed up some of the steps of the church (della Scala) and quaffed a lot of the wine. A large stream of humanity went by, looking for a fun end to the day after Easter (pasquetta). I slept really well that first night.
One morning, I trekked over to a launderette recommended by the hotel, with two bulging bags of dirty clothes. For 4.80 Euros, I handed it over and was told to come back in two hours. After a quick cappuccino, my morning was made glorious by a visit to the church of San Francesco a Ripa, just down the street from the laundromat. I tiptoed into the empty church, down the left aisle to the end chapel. There she was, the Ludovica Albertoni, Bernini’s greatest work, in my humble opinion. I spent a happy forty-five minutes with her, leaving when a small group of other admirers came.
I had decided that I would attempt to use the bus system in Rome on this visit, having never done so in the past. Actually, it was pretty easy to figure out where any given bus was going by studying the sign for each route at the bus stop, Rome map in hand. My biggest success was actually gettting to the main Banca D’Italia building from trastevere on one bus. A short walk up via XX Settembre was necessary, so I stopped on the way and said hello again to Santa Teresa, Bernini’s other greatest work at the church of Santa Maria della Vittoria. Teresa looked good, but the Ludovica has more soul.
My mission at the Banca was to exchange a 500,000 lira bill into Euros, an unfortunate necessity with the current exchange rate. A few weeks before, at home in Santa Fe, I had found the souvenir lira bill tucked into my passport, along with 250 Euros. Once up the escalator to the first floor, I found a row of bank clerks whose job it is to redeem the old, wonderful lira for the mechanical-looking Euro. There was, of course, a full-page form to fill out with my vital information. With an unexpected qualm of regret, I forked over my cinque cento bill, large in size, gorgeously purple and blue in color, with Raphael’s portrait on it (for god’s sake), and received 272 boring Euros and some centissimi. A really elderly man at the next window was handed a ten Euro note and a couple of ones for whatever he had found in a pants pocket or an old shoe. He seemed grateful; I felt sad.
The bus ride back went through the piazza Barberini, past Bernini’s little bee fountain and the Triton sculpture in the center, cheering me up immensely. That night, April 1st, I went to dinner with a friend from San Francisco who was in Rome (plus Italy and Europe) for the first time. Two friends from Rieti drove into the city to join us, resplendent in their professional clothes. This was the night of the Ultimate April Fool’s Day joke.
Kathi and I arrived at the ristorante-pizzeria La Tana de Noantri at around eight, after sharing a bottle of falanghina at Café di Marzio. We expected Paola and Sirio to arrive momentarily. The restaurant was completely empty. Are we that early? we wondered. I asked one of the six waiters who were hovering over us, and he said that maybe people were not coming tonight because the Pope was near death. We murmured sympathically. My Rieti friends showed up, other diners did too; things got merry and I forgot about the Pope.
After lots more wine, some great food and conversation, we rose happily from the table. The young, rotund waiter from the start of our evening came up to us with the news that il Papa was dead. He had tears in his eyes; I had lots of wine in my system. I hugged him and said “coraggio.” Back in the main piazza---it was about ten-thirty by then---we had coffee and brandy at the Marzio. We talked about the dead Pope while a scattering of people strolled around the piazza. An hour afterward, back in my room at the Hotel Cisterna, I found CNN still immersed in the death-watch. He wasn’t dead after all!
The next morning, I learned that Italian television had erroneously (perhaps) announced that the heart had stopped Friday night; then, later, that the heart had started up again. I pretty much lost interest in the whole thing around that point in my stay in Rome. A few nights later, after the real death, I had dinner again at La Tana de Noantri, with new friends from the Slow Travel Get-Together. The chubby waiter and I eyed each other sheepishly and exchanged “mi dispiace”s.
As for the restaurant mentioned above, it’s one of my old reliables in trastevere. I especially like to go when it’s warm enough to sit outside in their terrace area across the lane. There’s a wonderful old two-story palazzo, incredibly crusty, on one side of the tented dining area. I actually celebrated my 60th birthday there on a warm May evening, with a number of friends. Imagine my surprise that night when the check came and I found out that the Italian custom is apparently for the Birthday Person to treat all the others. Yes, that was a memorable night. Anyway, the restaurant has excellent fritto misto and fiori di zucca, plus good versions of most Roman favorites. Inside, the lighting is unatmospherically bright; I always thought how my parents (who lived until their late eighties) would have appreciated the wattage during perusal of the menu. La Tana de Noantri, Via della Paglia 1-2-3, just off the piazza S. Maria in Trastevere.
A few Pope Notes: On a random bus ride, I wound up at the Vatican, and saw the crowds gathering for word of the imminent death, with scores of TV vans parked in a clump, anchor-people and cameras on top of the vehicles, broadcasting to the world. My friend Kathi and her sister actually got into the viewing line on Monday, when the body was taken from the residence into the basilica. They shuffled along from two o’clock until midnight, when they finally passed the bier. Then, they walked back to their hotel at Piazza di Spagna. On Tuesday, I was almost trampled by thousands of people running down Corso Vittorio Emanuele II from the bus terminal toward the Vatican. By that time, the line was several kilometers long. I didn’t go into the centro again, nor anywhere near the Vatican. The city was plastered with repeating posters featuring an image of John Paul II, hands clasped over his head, and the word, “Grazie.” Rows and rows of the same poster---very surreal.
On my last night in Rome, Wednesday April 6th, my trastevere friends drove me over to visit a mutual friend who lives in Parioli, a posh neighborhood far from the earthy trastevere. Lots of streets were in the process of being blocked off, in preparation for the funeral on Friday. My friend Floriana had prepared a delicious dinner---champagne and tidbits to start, a fabulous pasta with peperoncini, broccoli, panna and amazing tiny roasted croutons, then crudities, fruit and twenty kinds of cheese. After that, there was gelato, which I had to forego, regretfully.
My friends were all upbeat about the on-going regional election results, which were showing a turn toward the leftist coalition; eventually this could translate into tough times for Berlusconi. They gloated over his uncomfortable “press conference,” where he actually had to, for once, squirm through some difficult questions. All during dinner, helicopters came, went and hovered overhead. Floriana said, matter-of-factly, “Bush is here in the neighborhood, sleeping at the American Embassy.”
We had a lovely, twisty-turny ride back to trastevere in the Roman night, past the Colosseum, the Forum, Caracalla---each ground-lit and beautiful. The past, the present, the future, all in one night.
